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March 28, 2019

Knowing when to let go.

Thank you, everyone, for your kind words about our Cocoa. I still have weepy moments and a little pity-party here and there. Also, our Callie is in mourning. I really didn't think it would affect her so much as she and Cocoa were really just roommates-they didn't play or really love on each other, but I suppose not all Sisters do that, but still care for each other.

I often wonder if your pets know exactly how much you really LOVE them.

The hardest part at times is KNOWING when to let go.
We struggled for days.
She was still eating. She was still getting up and following us around the house. She still seemed content and her nub wagged when you came home.
But then, I just knew.
She was so thin.
She'd stopped snoring a few weeks ago when she slept and she was a notorious loud snorer and I felt she wasn't able to sleep well.


The Coach was adamant about her being euthanized at home and not in the vets office where she was always nervous. When it was Ozzie's time to go, his specialist came to the house and did it for us and we wanted the same for our Cocoa. (all of our pets are buried in the garden)

This time we didn't have her regular vet come as she was going back and forth to the specialist office and her regular vet. They don't always offer in-home euthanasia. The receptionist at the specialist office recommended Lap of Love to us.
I called on Monday morning and the coordinator on the phone was more than kind and sensitive. She found the vet in our area that they used and set up a time for us later that day.
The Dr. came at her specified time. Of course both Callie and Cocoa popped up seeing someone at the door and both greeted her happily. *sigh*

Dr. Maggie was more than sweet and loved on both our girls as we talked about Cocoa's situation. She agreed by just looking at her and hearing of her ailments (and her VERY OLD age) that we were making the best decision for Cocoa.

It was a 35-45 minute process from arrival to departure: the Dr was so sweet and gentle with our girl and our hearts.

She quietly laid on her bed surrounded by the three of us and seemed content and not in the least stressed.
A tuft of her hair and a forever paw print for keeping. 






































Ok. I'm not gonna talk about it anymore. But I might drop a few tears now and then, but even tears have to stop sometime.


XOXO




6 comments:

George said...

What a beautiful -- and sad -- memorial to Cocoa. Tears are perfectly understandable.

bobbie said...

I am SO sorry for your loss ~ what a blessing to have someone come to your home and be so gentle.
Sending hugs, if I may ~

Beth (A Moms Life) said...

Oh geez! I'm not even a dog person but this had me teary eyed. I'm so glad you were able to be with her until the very end and that she was at home surrounded by her family. <3

Pam said...

Oh wow...I wanted to do the same for our kitty at home since going to the vet stressed her out so badly. But when I saw her going down hill and how much discomfort she was in, I really did not want to wait another day. I was glad to have our vet and her staff there since I was bawling my eyes out. They were such a comfort to me since they had been her vet all her life. I'm so glad you found the thing that worked best for you at the right time. It has been 2 years as of March 20 for our kitty and I still tear up occasionally. The first couple of weeks were a wash out. My daughter and I struggled so much with grief. I thought..she's just a cat..we have been through much worse. But she was a constant little buddy. And we got her just shy of a year after we lost L. She was a little bit of happy after a horrible season. She was special. Just like Cocoa. *tears and hugs*

NCmountainwoman said...

It is so hard, but as the most important people who know and love her best, you somehow know instinctively when it's time to let go. They do communicate this to you and a perceptive pet owner recognizes and honors that. It's still a very difficult and painful time, but the noble thing to do for someone who has been so loyal.

Laurel Wood said...

I am so very sorry. My heart breaks for all of you. Sending love & hugs, Mildred